{"id":1145,"date":"2016-08-28T04:15:41","date_gmt":"2016-08-28T08:15:41","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kevingottuso.com\/?p=1145"},"modified":"2018-09-12T21:58:18","modified_gmt":"2018-09-13T01:58:18","slug":"late-night-ramblings","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kevingottuso.com\/?p=1145","title":{"rendered":"Late Night Ramblings"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"https:\/\/kevingottuso.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/08\/image.jpeg\" rel=\"attachment wp-att-1146\" data-rel=\"lightbox-image-0\" data-rl_title=\"\" data-rl_caption=\"\" title=\"\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"1024\" height=\"1024\" src=\"https:\/\/kevingottuso.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/08\/image-1024x1024.jpeg\" alt=\"Zelda the Pig\" class=\"alignnone size-large wp-image-1146\" srcset=\"https:\/\/kevingottuso.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/08\/image-1024x1024.jpeg 1024w, https:\/\/kevingottuso.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/08\/image-150x150.jpeg 150w, https:\/\/kevingottuso.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/08\/image-300x300.jpeg 300w, https:\/\/kevingottuso.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/08\/image-768x768.jpeg 768w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 1024px) 100vw, 1024px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>Late night artists confession: no matter how many successful projects I have behind me, every time I look at a blank &#8216;canvas&#8217; (regardless of medium) I wonder if I&#8217;ll be able to do it again.  It&#8217;s both terrifying and exciting at the same time.  But mostly terrifying.<\/p>\n<p>As I&#8217;ve gotten older, I&#8217;ve realized the key is to push to draw that first line.  And then the canvas isn&#8217;t blank anymore.  And every line that I draw becomes less scary until I reach the end.  The fear is replaced by accomplishment as the final lines are always the same: my signature.  It is the reward at the end of the journey, it is comfort and pride.  It is relief. <\/p>\n<p>And then I start the next project.  And I&#8217;m terrified again.  And while I hate that I still feel that way after all this time, I think that what would truly be terrifying would be to lose that feeling.  The fear is what makes the first line possible.  It is the cure for a blank canvas.<\/p>\n<p>There&#8217;s a metaphor for life here, I&#8217;m sure of it, but I&#8217;m too tired to get there right now.  Good night \u2764\ufe0f<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Late night artists confession: no matter how many successful projects I have behind me, every time I look at a blank &#8216;canvas&#8217; (regardless of medium) I wonder if I&#8217;ll be able to do it again. It&#8217;s both terrifying and exciting at the same time. But mostly terrifying. 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